Passivity

I wish I wasn't so passive. I don't really know how to be assertive. Well, sorta. I've learned a lot in the last few years, but I know I still have much to learn.

The most frustrating thing is that I jump too quickly. On a scale of one to ten (one being calm, ten being angry) I'll start off as a one and then continue to be a one and then something is happening where I need to assert myself and I'll jump all the way up to an eight. I wish I could be more gradual, but I always overdo it, and then people around me get upset, and thus I have learned to just continue being passive and bottle it in.

But I'm trying to change that. It's just hard for me.